In the end, there can be only one.

Maria left this morning. Now the apartment is feels abandoned.

Last night we packed up all her things and watched some favorite episodes of Babylon 5 together one last time before she left for the airport this morning.

The sum was greater then the whole of its parts for our apartment for me. The dynamic was bizarre, wonderful, and crazy at times but I loved it. It's even more evident now without the cute little redheaded girl and the goofball workaholic around. It's like being homesick while at home. I miss you guys already.

Gah. I guess I'm next now...

On My Own - Eponine, Les Miserables

And now I'm all alone again,
Nowhere to turn, no one to go to.
Without a home, without a friend,
Without a face to say hello to.
And now the night is near,
Now I can make believe he's here.

Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping.
I think of him, and then I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping.
The city goes to bed,
And I can live inside my head.

On my own,
Pretending he's beside me.
All alone,
I walk with him till morning.
Without him,
I feel his arms around me,
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me.

In the rain,
The pavement shines like silver.
All the lights
Are misty in the river.
In the darkness,
The trees are full of starlight,
And all I see is him and me for ever and forever.

And I know
It's only in my mind,
That I'm talking to myself
And not to him.
And although I know that he is blind,
Still I say,
There's a way for us.

I love him,
But when the night is over,
He is gone,
The river's just a river.
Without him,
The world around me changes.
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers.

I love him,
But every day I'm learning,
All my life,
I've only been pretending!
Without me,
His world will go on turning,
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known!

I love him...
I love him...
I love him...
But only on my own...

I'm feeling all nostalgicky, and it's only been hours.